Dearest Antoni, It's Not You-- It's Me

it was that age when fire hits
not a day over sixteen
i held you in my arms that day
not knowing what it'd mean
it was casual, it was perfect
and you didn't seem to mind
you gave me rose tinted shades
and rendered me so blind

i really did love you,
i still do, and always will.

i was too young to fully see you
but too old to not at all
there was no reason not too
and no break before the fall
i knew you'd never leave
so i ignored the time
you knew i'd come back
ignoring reason&rhyme


i clung to all i thought would drift
and i never thought of you
you gave me time, i gave you space
but all of it fell through
i want to come back, i know it well
but i need you to know it too
i don't think i love you anymore
but i need to feel it too
i tried to sort things out at times
but sadly fail to clarify

i said that i'd come visit
i still will, or at least try.

you were never distant.
you were far, but never so.
i thought you'd always stay
so it wouldn't hurt to go
time and distance, we predicted
but what came forth we never saw
and it's been strange, ever since
because i still can't seem to draw
i barely you knew you then
i barely know you now
but i don't love you anymore
which makes it more than just a vow

i said i'd come to visit
and i meant it; i still do.

i think about the family
the one i said i'd visit
your street, pets, and scenes
the romance made it fit
i don't know how you're doing
i don't know if you're the same
you were never all there was
and i was never the only one
pero antes de ir por el almohado
tengo que pedirte el perdon

no necesitas salvacion, yo se
aunque podria yo, tal vez

god knows what's been done to you
god knows what's been to me
i know you know i'll do as i say
and the knowledge sets me free
what i knew back then was nothing
what i know now does not suffice
i may forget you until then
but i will have loved you twice.

de verdad,
la chica que prometio